Friday, June 12, 2009

A strange dream...

You showed me the worm
that eats the flesh of your hand.
You still keep it.
"Isn't it beautiful?"
You asked me.

You said you were showing
your faith when I looked
inside your skin.
A blind white larva curled
around your organs, consuming.

Later you asked, "why
am I so pale, why
am I weak?"
I could not think
of an answer.


  1. So any thoughts on what the subconscious might want me to know?

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  3. I forward the link of your blog to Freud and his auto reply answered that he was busy trying to decipher his feelings toward his mother. So now, I'm going to give it a go:

    Hm, what does Rab subconscious want to communicate? My diagnosis: something in your life is not working the way it's suppose to. It is actually really wrong and in your heart of hearts you know exactly what's going on and how it is affecting, you can even see the results of this malice, but it's easy to pretend that it is not there and continue living life as usual.

    Now things are getting worst, almost dangerous! Your body, mind or soul is in danger--maybe all of them!! They are survivals. They refuse to let you go under. So they are saying: "Rab WAKE up and look at the huge worm!"

    Gods, I surprise myself sometimes! That was deep...

  4. Rab,

    Good Sir if I may offer my opinion here-

    This poem/dream struck a sadness in my heart. A heaviness if you will. When I first read it, I thought of 3 things. I feel as though you know exactly who this person was that you were dreaming of- if so, you should look inside yourself to see what they mean to you, it will bring you an important revelation.

    I'm not sure, since it has been years since i've offered to interpret these things, but it seems to me that one of the possibilities for the message in this dream is that you care about this person, but don't share the same viewpoints- so much so that you think the things they love are the very things that are killing them.

    It also occurred to me that you are capable of helping them, but lack the courage to do so- afraid of showing too much of your feelings for them for doing so.

    As I said, I saw three things, three different reasons for you having had this dream. Search inside yourself- I believe you'll find the answers you seek in regards to this dream soon enough.

    Forgive me if I am wrong or being too intrusive with my interpretation- I am a bit rusty at this. But, I am a woman of my word and I promised you that I would give you my thoughts on this.

    Sleep well my friend.

  5. Magalay - Thank you. I think you are right that there is a subdued call to action here - in the dream I had nothing to say, and that is a point of discord. Perhaps I am subconsciously in stasis and must ask myself whether and how to act.

    M'lady Wings - I wonder if you are on to something. Your words strike a chord. Perhaps a cord. I do not come across many people who share my world view. Many people who I care about in one capacity or another are preposterously out of line with my beliefs - to the extent that I must completely suspend judgment to hold a conversation with them.

    Regarding the lack of courage: perhaps if we phrased it differently. I admit to apprehension about harming others by interfering in their lives (listen to me, dancing around megalomania). But I believe it is healthy to respect the need for slow, gradual change. I have seen grave damage done when personal insights came too fast. As for revealing my feelings for people, I do not always do so, but I have no fear of it.

    Thanks for your comments. I welcome any more, including comments on the delusions of omnipotence forming the subtext here ;)

  6. Ha. I wonder if I have inadvertently diagnosed myself with a case of omnipotent megalomania. Alas, off to the fun house with me.

  7. This is wonderfully written! I like these kind of writes that are open to infinite interpretations. I think I shall second findingmywingsinlife's comment. My interpretation is more or less along the same lines, frankly. Keep writing!!!